The truth is that all of the soul wrenching, important personality development work that has been done in my life to change me to the uttermost: has been initiated, developed, consummated and harvested by God’s Holy Spirit. He has taken me from a deplorable bottom, where I loathed myself; to a daily happy and well person, who faces problems, looks forward to challenges and feels good about Himself, while serving God and others. Yet, what I clearly know about all of this positive change is: I can take credit for none of it!
I have learned and come to realize:
There are times, when God’s will seems not only far from me but far from what I want. These are places that I can not make myself want God’s will. In those times, I have been trapped in my own devices and vices. Yet, the great growth that has occurred in me has happened because, I have learned in those times; to become willing to pray about it.
I ask God to help me want His will. I literally ask Him to help me want and be willing to do what He wants. If I persist in prayer, I find that which was stuck in steel inside me, begins to move. Invariably and time and time again, He has supplied a heart and attitude change, to help me not only be willing to change but to want it also. This internal transformation is a great miracle to me! Because I was unable to do it on my own.
There have then been times that though I found my volition in line with what God wants, that I have felt and known that I’m powerless to bring these changes about; even on the inside of myself. In these situations, though I feel helpless to bring about the needed change. I have found the strength to pray about it and ask God to grant me His supernatural power. His Power gives me Divine Energy to do that, which I have felt so powerless to do in my own strength.
So powerful has been God’s work on my behalf in these matters, that the very thing which was a liability, actually becomes an asset. In fact, many times the very thing which was before a crushing personal weakness has become a clear point of Great Overcoming Strength.
But through this whole uplifting process during the last 7 years, it has never been my own wisdom and strength which was primarily responsible. Yet an incredible and amazing change has truly happened. And in each instance, it has been an honest point of personal weakness before God that has resulted in Incredible Positive Personal Power.
So the only fitting result of all this is that I humbly acknowledge that all meaningful good and change in my life must be accredited to Jesus Christ and the inner workings of The Holy Spirit.
A twitter friend this morning well said the take home truth from all of this.
“When God sent Moses back to Egypt, he “…took God’s staff in his hands”. Ex. 4:20. Whenever you’re on the move, ensure you take “God’s staff”, The empowering Holy Spirit, along with you.”
Obiajulu N. @ajulu23
On my own, I am weak and undone. But through the Might of God’s Holy Spirit, I am terrifically empowered and energized with new Life. Without Him, I have discovered myself to be pitiful and beggarly. But With Him, I am continually amazed that I am a Dynamo of Strength, Help and Hope and Divine Energy.
Amazing Grace: That saves a Wretch like me!
2nd Corinthians 12:9
New International Version
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
New Living Translation
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.