I spent a good portion of today reading back through some of my sister Detra’s materials. I wish she and I could sit down and talk one more time. I wish she could have witnessed while she was alive (1944-2005), the peace in Christ, I have come to know.

I have come to realize that: You can know and not understand. Some of the most profound revelations in Christ can be experienced in the deepest depths of your heart and known beyond any question or doubt, and yet your mind cannot understand them. You can know deeper than you can understand!

You cannot wiggle, squirm, strive or work to gain some of these timeless and eternity shaping lessons. God will show them to you if you are ready and need them. But they are beyond the most exponentially advanced computer mind. They cannot be realized through mental acumen alone.

There are things that used to torture me trying to figure them out. Now I know them deeply in my heart and no longer strive to understand. But they were a gift, when I rested the deepest matters of my heart, in the honest trust of God. I could have never intellectually or philosophically apprehended them, without God showing them to me, in the Spirit.

I think that’s why Jesus said you must become as a little child come to Him. Because it is not the advancement of your intellect that will ever come to know the greatest truths. Simple love and Trust in Christ is beyond the test tube of the scientist. Yet, it is more true than the most empirically ratified scientific knowledge.

But you cannot prove it. You can’t even argue it, without missing the point of it. Sometimes you can’t even explain it, to those you seem to think would benefit from it. But if you will rest in the secured depths of the love of God, He will communicate things to your spirit that are quantum leaps and galactic proportions beyond anything you can ever figure out in your mind.

There is a sweet depth of peace in the knowledge of God that has satisfied my deepest longings. I may have to do some things that are not very enjoyable in this earthly realm. But I know who I do them for and why I do them. I am at peace. There are presents in the presence of the Spirit of God that are more wonderful that the limits of human vocabulary can describe.

Yes God gives me words. But they are His words and He gives them to me when He wants me to share them not when I want to tell them. It is like resting in a current, that you are sure will take you to your home port.

I no longer have to work to earn
the myriads knowledge about things, I am interested in. When I am ready and if I need them, God will share them with me. As long as my first priority is to walk, live dwell in the Holy Spirit. God satisfies my greatest questions and deepest longings
….. with the sweet realization of Jesus.

My sister Detra, in the car with me in the last days of her life. 2005